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by ~LycanthropeVl
Chained SufferingI sealed my heart in chains,  And sliced open my veins,  So that you could see,  All the pain you cause me.   
Day to day, you say things that hurt,  And then wonder why my words are curt.  I fake a smile and a laugh now and again,  To pretend things are how they’ve always been.   
My bonds pull tighter,  Because my spirit isn’t that of a born fighter.  This is the only protection my soul can offer,  Even though, every second more, I suffer. Chained Suffering
by ~LycanthropeVl
Inner DemonsI cried myself to sleep last night,  And I hope you didn’t suspect.  I slashed my wrist again for the millionth time,  And I hope you never see.  I held my breath,  So that you wouldn’t hear me screaming.  I hate myself today,  But it won’t be any different tomorrow.  My life is draining from me,  I pray that you cannot tell the difference.  The very will my soul was built upon dwindles,  I only hope you’re not here to see when it goes out. Inner Demons
by ~LycanthropeVl
Never Wake UpOne day, she wakes up,  And he doesn’t.  Her mind strays back,  Though her heart tells her she mustn’t.   
“I have cancer,” he’d joke, constantly,  “Soon, I’m going to die.”  Every time he said such things,  She’d die a little bit more, and he’d see her  
-try not to let him see her cry.   
“Don’t say such things,” she’d scold, fighting back tears.  He’d laugh and reply, “Its true.”  She shook her head, let the tears fall,  Because he wasn’t here to see her tears, his life was through. Never Wake Up
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IT IS FUCKING OFFICIAL

Wed Sep 9, 2009, 11:50 PM
  • Mood: Depressed
  • Listening to: Some Japanese movie
  • Reading: I wish I hadn't read anything
  • Watching: See Listening to
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing
I am the BIGGEST loser on the planet. Such an idiot.

Okay, whatever, my now ex boyfriend told me earlier today - in a fight - that I was such a bitch, yadayadayada, and that he was going to propose to me on Christmas. Well, he didn't log out of his myyearbook account, and yes, it was wrong of me to invade his privacy, but I got curious so I looked. He told me he loved me, told me he wasn't cheating on me, that there was no one else. HA!

He was dating about five different girls online. Some may not see this as cheating, but I do. And it kills me because I love him and I would have said yes, but now I don't know. He has told me over and over that he is never going to change, and that if I don't like it, I should break up with him.

I can't spend every day wondering what he is doing when my back is turned. He had plans to meet some of these girls and I can't deal with that.

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  • Current Residence: Wisconsin
  • Interests: Does it matter?
  • Favourite movie: doesn't matter
  • Favourite band or musician: eh... music is kind of annoying
  • Favourite genre of music: Rock
  • Favourite poet or writer: Cliche but Edgar Allen Poe
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  • Personal Quote: What good is living when everything fades away in time?

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